"Life is a bitch"

I heard this word from "Apprentice" season 6 just 50 minutes before.Probably more than that...

You me should know,life aren't simple as we thought.In fact,life can be simple too,just depend to how you look through it.

This my lifestyle in China.I get myself up from bed before 30-20 minutes before class,I used to woke up 1.5 hours before the class if now is summer.You will always hope to hide inside your blanket for couple of minutes during the winter.At least for I am.After that,get myself a hot milo,prepare for the brand new day.After rolling in "lecture day",gaming,studying,chatting probably are the main stuff I will do during the night time.During weekend,I would spend my time in my room,doing nothing with the condition that I have nothing to do at that day.Yet,sport is my top choice during free time (getting less and less nowadays,you know,winter dis activate person,at least for me).

Is there problem with my lifestyle above?Yeah,I do think so,repeated the same route every week every single day every moment.That's why I will go to downtown for a great meal or a shopping,walking after "stuck" in my university few weeks!

I enjoy to read friends' blog.You may say I'm 3 8,but I do like to know what is going up with my buddies around the world...Malaysia,Uk,Australia,Nz...many many...As least I won't out of channel with them,get myself ready for topic and activities whenever it is.

I do have many "1st time" at here.Including the day before yesterday,I have been asked to be model for art college.I mean "OMG"!!!They are looking for someone to be make-up model,and give me a call to ask me am I willing to do so.Due to the condition that moment---exam at the next day,just woke up,messy hair,sticky body,terrific look....Many reasons for me to reject them and I do so--Reject them!After all,am guk now,as many pretty can be found at art college,I am damn sure foreign student who can speaks fluent Mandarin while Malay and English will give them a deep shock,for real.In fact Kenny,Jackson and me already get used of this...HAHA!!!

Local : "Omg!!!Your Mandarin are good"
Us : "Thanks"
Local : "Where do you learned it?"
Us : "Our country since we are kid"
..................

For the next,they will gaze on us,their eyes full of question and jealous,how come Malaysian can be able master so many language at the same time.Yeah, "BE PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN"

Last,enjoy life.Life isn't only bitch,while life is a witch too.

First at all,I want to answer all of viewer's answer,as I cant reply my comment in my "comment" due to the proxy number problem,even now I blogging by another way but not direct login to blogger.com.Whatever it is,quite troublesome...

Ya wansim,I know is you,as I found that account belongs to tankok and I don't think he have free time to view my blog,haha...And laysan,I also thinking by using "starving" or "struggle" these 2 words,I thought both are same meaning,hahah.But in fact is big difference,haha....And kak,ya,I'm not cute but cool too,HAHA!!!

Ok now,tomorrow Monday once,hmm....I passed a "luxury" week,I've spent a lot on unnecessary stuff.Due to my economy now,although few hundreds bucks not really much,but it did a big impact to me!Gosh!!

Macdonald just promoted a new pie here.The price is double then others price which is RMB6,going to try it someday...Hoho

I was thinking just now what should I type in my blog.After I refill my water,I decide to use this word to start

"其实生活可以很简单地"

HAHA...Don't get misunderstand to me that I'm bad mood or feeling not good now,but the fact that I'm quite happy tonight.Nothing happened,but just feel life is cheerful.

My previous blog is something started like this "I have sort thinking whenever Monday arrived"...Yeah,this my feeling when I've been starving for Friday (classes started from 8am to 6pm).Actually I feel this schedule still ok,but the main problem is all the lessons are 2 hours per lesson.It kills me sometimes.

Well,I have nothing to share or photo to upload.What I want to do is,Be Happy~~~HAHA

I have sort feeling during every Monday morning "A brand new day for this week!!"

People said men are messy and untidy when they are living together.Compare to others,we are much more cleaner and tidy,at least we will take off our shoes before entering to our room,and sweep at least twice to 3 times per week,and most important we are washing our clothes every 1 to 2 day.Still,I found that our room are messy and full of dust every morning I get up from my bed,what's going on?

Oh ya,I just about forget to announced our roommate have did a very successful job last weekend,he took part cooking competition and get 4th placing man!!!Who is him?HAHA...Mr.Kenny Lau...Great to him

Lotion are one of the great product of century,without it...I think I'm a dead man after all.Nivea rox~~~~

Sometimes it does happened...When you are tired,out of energy or sleepy,but you don't feel want to sleep.All you hope is somebody will play with you or even speak with you,but you will give such reaction to the person who come against to you "I'm nothing,leave me alone" or even you just smile or give them a black face to tell them indirectly "don't come near to me"...

One of my very best friend told me this "why I always heard you are in a bad mood ya?"

I'm agreed with him,I am quite easy effected by the person nearby.When they are bad mood,indirectly I will become same with them too.

Meanwhile,thanks for the god's giving.I can recover my mood after few hours.What you have to do is keep annoy me or just leave me alone.For person who leave me alone,I will find a way to cheer me back automatic.For the year ago,the most effective way I've tried is SLEEP!!!Other than that,others methods still so so for me,lol...

Well,blogging is a amazing stuff ya,I feel much better now.Going back to the track.I think I lack of sugar,that's why very panas baran.Tomorrow need go for chocolate,I mean,a lot of it!!HAHAHA

Another grand morning I woke up early,the difference is,the weather is cold until I keep shake my body.

Well...What would I do to get my ass from my bed so early?Yeah,jogging!!!HAHA

Somehow,when I reached the track field,I saw many junior from India having their PE class.Oh dude,you can't imagine what is in my mind that moment,holy~~~I tracked my cap a little down,start to warming up myself,and run....

1st lap,2nd lap,3rd lap...CAN'T breathe well!!!I'm started wondering am I run out of gas or am I really a tropical boy who cannot stand in cold weather.Whatever it is,I stopped after 4 laps running.Not sweat at all,in fact there is some,but is cold sweat,like...Not really can give a good explainantion on it.The worst is,I get myself struggled in "energy-less" condition for the couple of min afterward.I drinking hot milo to provide me some energy.It does help a lot,I'm feeling much better after having this cup of "honey",lol...

God damn it~I starting to think,how come those Russian can training in -ve temperature?Are they superman or am I a birdie?Who knows...

People are considered me as below :

1)Get injury very fast
2)Emotional
3)Hungry always

Well,I admit all of it.For the first one,I am.I don't know why my legs always did same thing to me.But like people said "xi guan jiu hao"...Ya,I'm ok with it,lol...

Emotional,I think I am also.I am sort of get moody always,but thanks god I will get my mood back very soon,that is me~~`I don't know since when,optimistic this word have found inside my dictionary,so is ok for me too....

For the 3rd one...God damn it!!!Winter approaching,I starting my old path like last year.Eat eat and eat!!!My weight and body,omg...

Why I will write such blog?Since pointless and meaningless,hohoho...But just wanna to drop something here...They said this year there going to be snow is Nanjing.Yes!!!!Will I have chance to experienced it?Lol...

It should be a wonderful and warm morning.I get my body from my bed very early today,though I'm freaky tired due the stupid exam.But I still get up very early.

I'm quite lucky compare to last year.This year I selected by senior team to be a player for them.Football I mean.What I have to sacrifice is only take a super long ride bus to go over to another campus for playing a match every week!

Honest speaking,I'm quite moody this recently.Nothing happened.The only changed is my friend around keep face new problem and sharing with me.I quite afraid sometimes as I scare my mood will affect the opinion or the word I am going to speak to them.

So today I'll listen for many many song,I want to relax myself,although today still lot of works for me.Yet,relax and recharge myself.

There are a quote in Chinese "a bird who wakes up early can have bug to eat"...this what I am experienced now.Every morning I woke up,I'll step to the balcony take a look in the sky,or the football field,track field,basketball field,even the aunty who is sweeping the floor at downstairs.Quite fun actually.Doing what the old folks did in the morning too~~~

My hand is freezing now,quite difficult to type the keyboard and blogging.In fact I am chatting with my buddy in uk too now.Like usual,love to chat with her,silly enough!!!!HAHAHAHA

Headache headache headache still headache...

Stupid Physic exam is coming.My ass pain,don't know what is happening,feeling just not comfortable.Argh!!!Winter is coming,please don't got what problem during this critical months,gosh...

Many have to write,but don't know once I login here,all have been vanished,what the heck...

Please return me a healthy body,please~~~

After I viewed Cheryl's blog just now.I found something interesting on it...Yeah,there also bunch of lists for me want to do.I don't know how much I've completed,because once I completed 1 stuff,there will another new stuff coming along.

Something happened like this.I watched “岁月风云“ for this few weeks.There are so much quotes inside this drama I really liked it.It gave me so much inspiration or u called it motivation.The scene 刘松仁 tried to stand up by his own will.Yeah,I almost cried because of that.Darn~~I am not person will cry easily,but don't know why,I really get touched by this scene.

My holiday left 2 more days,I didn't do any meaningful stuff in this holiday.Feel regret?No,because I've learned something,never regret what u've done.Passion on everything,is the best thing for me now

I had a weekly holiday since yesterday,National Day of China.Wohoo~~~

Get myself into a fair----Malaysia tourism Exhibition Fair!!!Wohoo~~~Is not fun,but...Can give my hand to Malaysian Tourism Department is quite a exciting too.

Malaysian~~~Mr Kenny goes home to sleep dy,lol~~~


Ya,we're on tv,for real,HAHA

For my first time,I've met a China guy,who spoke a very fast English,like a rocket,I think he is showing off himself,keep using those vocabulary that you never thought will be come out from mouth besides writing.But I still won't deny the possibility of my poor English standard too~~Lol...

Starting to jogging every morning,sometimes play football after my jog.Damn~~~Everyday just slept 4 hours,but I feel my life packed now,but will my health affected because of this?Lol~~~

Get my ass up still the same,5.45am,aduh~~Today body just like cotton,soft soft and "energy-less"...HAHA

I spotted a very place for watch sunrise,very funny,is in front of castam department.Since when I will watch sunrise at government somehow a very strict level department?HAHA

Yesterday was the night,I've sent a Kenya freshman go to hospital,his lung,throat?Infected,aduh~~We was able to have dinner only at 10pm.Pity to those African student to come over here.Being from another pacific but can't speak in Chinese does a HUGE problem to them,all the best for them~~

Here's the story...There is a freshman came from KL this year.Malaysian,somehow Gemini,although I'm not "KL-nese",but I have stayed there about 1 month before I came here.Yeah,that was my most valuable and happiest moment in life.Miss you guys lot...Kak,Vping,Baby,Wansim,Laysan and some unpredictable person like Sheauting and others Zhong's class fellows.So on,for whose are understand this,please remind Birdy that I'm still owe him 20 bucks for the "cho-d"...

Back to the track,"KL-nese",same topic,language,gossips.Yeah,we are having lot of great time.Yet,he cried yesterday.Wth~~~because miss his little doggy (10 years) p/s dog 1 year = human 3 years,so the doggy is 21 years??

We drank beer,I've promised myself don't ever drink if unnecessary,but I broke my promise.Finally I understand why people drink alot when they are depress or sad,because the more u drank,the more you will feel sad,that's why he cried!!!Aduh~~~

Brand new day,friday...

Personally,don't like this feeling when woke up from the bed --- SORE THROAT!!!

Finally,went out to shopping for the whole day as I planned about 6 months ago yesterday.Besides tired,still tired.Just graped a shirt as my victory result.Winter is coming soon,plan to look for a feather clothes,not a thick one,but is a smart one.Walked in whole shopping mall (about 3-4 shopping mall still can't find the one i really want)

In my room,there are 3 people are living here.First at all,Mr.Kenny Lau got sick,second is Jackson,and I'm the last one,wtf!!!Sounds like we going to die in this coming winter soon,fark!!!

Yesterday night again,saw 1 of those freshmen was crying,homesick~~I have no word to help her besides just watching her cried,what else can I do to cheer them up?Whatever it is,just pray there will comes with good ending.

Plan start today onwards...Jom~~~

lol

5.45am, this the time I woke up today...

Why?Soccer with Indonesian freshmen.

How's it?Not bad,but I'm not played well.

This recently,brain are minded with badminton and football.How to improve myself?Training,thinking are the most wanted.

Tomorrow will be better,yeah!!!

Like some old folks told us since we are young "reload yourself,when something comes to you,you won't be panic for it as u are refilled"

Today I understand what it really means to.Today my roommate,Mr Kenny Lau received a sms from someone (I guessed is chairperson of badminton association) which request us for a tennis competition.Darn man!!!Tennis competition,for someone who really know me,you should know how excited am I?But I rejected to take part on it...

Why?HAHA...For those who are really understand me again,I didnt touched my tennis racquet about 6 months?Whatever it is,I didn't prepare in matter of physically or mentally,somehow this match is Nanjing university inter-match,I don't hope my virgin match lose like a totally newbie.

Darn!!!I want to be ready in everything now...Darn Darn!!!

14.49 13th sept

14.49
Today is 13th Sept,I just took a "nap" for about 4 hours after I finished my boring physic lesson at 8am just now.
Let's check out what happened along this days...
First at all,one of my very good friend "finally" said goodbye to "golden single club",felt happy for him very much.Can listen his "highness" from every single word from his mouth,all the best for that him.
Secondly,another my very best fren have been earned his "1st bucket" gold in uk,wow wow!!!Stepped into a real society and done an excellent job dude,proud to be ur friend,lol....
Yesterday night,I have talked to my junior,she was crying while we are discussing about future or whatever you called real situation of society,I wish I can help her out by sharing some of my experience.Everyone should be happy for future,I deeply believe on that...

7th Sept 2007

7th sept 2007, is a Friday. For sure, is the day which people always waiting for it as weekend is coming soon, joy and fun are coming along.
While, I am reading "MAP" magazine while listen "girl friend" in my room, learning those freaking English word, try to memorize them, or to pronounce them properly as I should done this stuff since last century.
Yesterday I played basketball with freshmen of my uni.Those from Indonesian.Honestly,I am fans of basketball,but I am shame of basketball as I really cant play it well,lol...My mouth is much better than my hands in basketball.
Fell down,get a scratch at my arm,is PAIN!!!
Summer left,autumn is coming,soon...very soon I mean,winter is coming...Gosh!!!

Definition of Success~~

Yesterday,someone asked me about what is the definition of success??
Well,this is a good question which bothering me until today...

Someone says this

Success = money

While someone thinks this

living in a big house (like a castle in fact) = success??

Yet

Having this as your pet = success??

Somehow

Got a wife like she (I wish too) = success??

If owning all of this,then am I become like him??

OMG...I'm just 21,I haven't can reach that level
Success for me is...being a kind person,ya,being a kind person,achieve what I set in my life,living by happily,that's all...Simply the best
But then,if something happened like that,then will I become this?

!!!!!!!!!!!

Ghost Day

Today there got something rare happened in Nanjing,that is RAINING!!!

Wow wow,honestly,I don't like raining in Nanjing.Why?Because in here I have to walk by my legs,I hate wet feeling at my feet.Yet,I am happy that this raining made the temperature of this summer become more windy and cold,thanks god~~~

Today is ghost day,we Malaysian 'celebrate' it at 14th,but China mainland here is at 15th (in Chinese calendar),so that's mean there is time delay for ghost door open??HA HA

When look in the mirror,found that myself is fat,so much oil at my stomach there,keep fit lo~~~Tomorrow there going to be 4 Indonesian come here,freshmen,I wonder next time how we going to talk secret.Using Malay cannot,Chinese cannot,Cantonese?Hakka?HA HA

And,today received someone's sms,omg...So miss her,really glad that she is still remembered me,haha...Thanks ya

Tata~~~

2 months holiday just passed like a light for me.For the 1st time I have this kind of feeling "I am having a 'pack' holiday,busy on most of the time.Yet,I am very enjoy by this kind of life.

Yesterday night I was thinking,what have I learned and what should I write in my blog.Answer is comes with nothing.There was too much for arranged.Lol

I have some friend having love problems each of everyday,I don't know since when I being a love consoler?Honestly,I have no idea on how to solve their problem,I was thinking,why they need to be so suffer for another who is always made them angry,disappointed,or even not love them?There are a lot to be done in life instead of love.Spend so much time for being sad in love better be happy in others matter.Since can't find the one who really can understand you well or support u totally,better wait~~It will comes when it comes

the day before yesterday, an elder told me something,he is the one of the successful person in China "比起老人家，他们受的苦，比我们要上几倍，经历了战争，无数的生离死别，我们是肯定不能比他们更苦了，如果我们连乐都不能比得上他们，那生活真没意义了，所以要比他们活得乐..."

Father Day

Father Day,keke...

Happy Father Day to father in the world,espcially to my own Daddy,I love u dad...

Sunday,a free day,hide in hostel to study,online,gaming,plus boring-ing...Life in foreign country damn sux...

Well,no more blaming,appreciate life,life is short to be sad,happy for rest of my life and all of my buddies,nop nop,for all ppl in the world...

我想哭

我快撑不住了，事情一波一波地接着来，一次又一次地敲击我，我很累了，很想离开这里，想躲开这一切。但我知道我不能这样做，我不是懦夫，我要把这些事好好地解决，也许这就是人生的一部分...

曾经，我拥有一群时时刻刻在我身边的朋友，他们时时刻刻都保护我，但现在已没有了，我们都长大了，拥有自己的世界了，我不可能再次向他们撒蛟，我也要自己来解决事情。

我有时在想，有多少人真的了解我？曾经曾经，我能把我的心事痛痛快快地说出来，把我的郁闷洒脱地爆发出来。日子过了，现在真的要找个愿意听我讲话的人都难了。甚至有些天天都向我说一些我也知道的道里。我不是怪你们，而是你们说得我也知道了，但我也是个人，我真的不能时时刻刻都把世界的一切看成那么淡。

看了我这次博客的人，首先会笑我，为何用华语，是不是在中国久了？大陆仔...过后就会骂我，说他们何时有不理我，也会骂我笨骂我无能，哈哈，我都预了，因为我实在不想把郁闷都放在心里，我只想好好地大哭一场~

哭完了，是时候解回到现实了，担起一切吧！！

Aduh~~~

jus early in the morning,summer is coming,but I really feel cold.Because of that air cond in my room or what?Btw,I hate cold,make me so inactive

Suppose to go to class right now!but stomach got little problem and dont like to go to class so early.8am....HAHA,is it consider early??Well,is me too lazy is it?YA,I think so,HAHA

ok la,is time to go to class lo...hai...Motivation motivation

HOHO

This 2 days I should be very moody de,but oppositely I didnt!!!
HAHAH
Today someone give me a call,oh man...Have a nice talk with her,really long time didnt chat with someone so syok~Why my phone cannot call to foreign country le,argh!!!
Lost motivation from day to day,this is expected...But I won't let this happen for long time,soon I will motivate myself again.

p/s Federer just used Nadal's forehand to play a game today,gosh!!!COOL!!!

Happy Birthday

me 21 years old liao!!!

Wow,really didnt feel that I am so old.Well,let me think back what have I did in this 21 years old.

Hmm...family,ya,I starting to have good relationship with my family,good~~

Study,still same same,need motivate myself always...

Career,talk is useless,I will prove it very soon~

Love,haha,this is the worst in my life...I really have a very very strong feeling that I would not find any1 will accompany me for my life,my attitude is sux...

Received several calls from my very dear fren,and DIDNT expect didnt received some really nice fren's wishing,haha...Ya,all is grew up,no need this liao.Understand,hoho

At last,I happy birthday to myself lo~Happy!!!

Thanks

Thanks dude...Thanks for the accompany,I really appreciate it.All the best for u

Step out...

For the 1st time in my life,for the 1st time which I dont think I will do so...

I told my mum that,I love her...

Yeah~

Ya,That's Me

Today is the 2nd day of my school reopen.Very honest speaking,I'm losing my EQ and patient this few days,I getting lost control to myself,I worried I'll become crazy if condition still on like that.But then,I jus read something that reliaze me feel myself now is very very very stupid,why should I always turn myself into such condition?My fate is always control by myself.

The more I watched Apprentice,the more I feel that Donald Trump is such a brilliant person,not onlybecause I impressed by him wealth or the way he spoke,the way he settled stuff or even the way he fired each participant.But I IMPRESSED by his "greedy".Being the top land developer of US,what he aimed is not runnerscape,miss universe or whatever,he is using TV program to raise up his name and look!!He is damn famous now and all ppl respect on him,feel him like a god.This is why I really impressed by him.

I have my own dream,I have my own target,I'm not afraid to accept any challenge,and I ready for it!!

Back to the Track

Last day for my holiday.After today,everything is going back to the track,everything will be started again,and come on...My target is closer again,yeah...

Well,1st time I motivate myself.COME ON MAN!!!USH!!!

wow...

wow wow wow...Let me make a calculation,for how many days I didn't write anything in this blog.Hmm...HAHA,I really forget about it,which means that hav suc a long time...

Having a week holiday,which made me boring till die.Study?Play comp?Football?Or even go out shopping?Ahmeh...All is done and still nyiak,may be I should follow kenny lau go to xi an for see-ing terra-cotta...

Today having such a nice moment during my football afternoon."U have develop legs,but u played like a little gal"...Tat's my comment from 1 of my classmate.What to say?I will kill him soon,I will prove to him,SHIT!!!

Watched princess diary today,is quite a old movie I think,but I quite love this kind of movie,I mean this kind disney movie,sometimes is quite meaning when watching this.HAHA

Finally

Ya,like the title above,finally...

Finally i made the decision...Regret?Ya,honestly,a bit,I found myself is so guitly,treated someone like that,even though many of my frens said that is not my fault,it can't be judged like tat,yet,that's what i felt...

Just the day b4 yesterday,I hope to look for someone to chat,ya,she appeared.Yet,time passed,ppl changed,feeling fade,I have no more braveness to tell her everything jus like last time,I have no idea why this will happened to me?I even feel that I have such a long distance with everyone.

Yaya,emotion is always appeared,I'm tired of it,I try to control it,but sometimes u just cant anything to it.Argh!!!

Ok,done this writting,mood will be fine soon,I love to write this,especially when i wanna seek for support,fuh~~Time for being a real person again.Time to being a man again,wake up!!

memory

Today i chatted with a fren i missed her so much,she changed so much,everyone is changed alot,that proved that everyone have their own life already,past is past,dun think it back again,this what we called life,look forward but not backward...

I took 1st step to something i never thought i will do,but yet,i did it...Happy and future is most important,dun look back,fight for future,fight fight and fight without regret.I wont reject any stuff at china anymore,i know here is the new life for me at here again...

good luck to everyone,all the best,memory forever...

xiamen

such a long time didnt write blog,no time for it,but actually is dunno what to write...

now at Xiamen,oh man,here is damn beautiful,warm and clean,suit for "yang lao" at future,haha...Jus now said a group of fire falling from the sky,oh man...like a metor,or may be a falling plane,diu,duno what the hell is it?

finally understand something.Ppl are hoping happiness around them always,no matter what,as long as happy,should not care about the ending is it??haha